Monday, August 15, 2011

A Realization


I often (once a week/every other week) step back from life and evaluate my choices, my path, my values, and my goals. This is great, but usually accompanied by a little crying, sometimes a blessing, and always lots of talking with roommates (in the past) or Danny dearest.


In addition, I have a unique quality where I choose a new focus about every 3 months and give EVERYTHING to that goal. Often it involves succeeding in classes each semester, when I was younger it involved doing a beautiful drawing or painting, perfecting a skill such as piano etc. Well, I have been working with Ivory for 3 months and hit that time where I felt ready for some change.

I did the discovery process yet again and Danny taught me something amazing. For this stage of my life, I don't choose only one thing to be completely devoted to. Truthfully, at this time in my life nothing is quite worth all my focus (e.g getting "toned" or extremely in shape, painting a gorgeous painting, selling ___ homes). He pointed out something that I had never thought of before. And, you know, you are completely going to laugh -- but this was a REVELATION to me!

My responsibility in life is to be a great wife, do well at work, cook and sew and do artsy things as bring me happiness, live an organized life, have fun, and scripture study. All these things will be done in moderation and I will just do some each. I'll try to do my best in each and enjoy preparing for motherhood and being a wife and that is the most important. That is my goal! It's not to get an "A" but to live each day doing little bits of work, indexing, boating, skiing, my last class at BYU, selling homes, journaling, photography, read about investing etc. What a change of mindset!

I don't have to prepare to run a marathon, become a great wedding photographer, become a virtuoso pianist. I just should enjoy running, photographing, and music.

I am so grateful to have the best husband in the whole world.

1 comment:

  1. Sometimes I really think we think alike. So this was of course so helpful for me to read! Although I kind of like how passionate you get about things too - its what makes you you, so don't be afraid to go all out for something really important every once in a while. A wise health instructor at education week said "save your religious zeal for the things that will prepare you for the celestial kingdom, not for what you do and do not eat." Or, in other words, be eccentric about what matters most, and then enjoy the ride in moderation for other things which supplement those goals.
    Your blog is great. Keep posting!